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It seems like it have been a while that I didn’t update my blog on movie. Well, last Friday night (27^th March 2009) I went movie with my ex-housemates after tired working whole day and I almost didn’t join them. Luckily, I didn’t miss to watch this movie. It is just so worthwhile to spend time watching this great movie. At first when my ex-housemate told me about wanted to watch this movie, I was like, “Erm… Okay, since I didn’t work on the next day. Then, I’m okay to join”. I didn’t really put much expectation on it. I didn’t really know this movie famous and best selling novel as well (You see… You can’t blame me on this as I’m the one who not into novel but comic or anime.. Hehe… Oh ya, and by the way I long time didn’t watch movie already and I’m so out to date now =_=). Overall from the beginning and until the ending of this movie, I can just said, “Perfect and NICE” movie I ever watch in the year of 2009… (so far ^.^).

This movie is based on a novel by Sophie Kinsella. In this movie, it can simply let you feel the glamorous world of New York city fashions and shopping behavior of Rebecca Bloomwood (starred by Isla Fisher) who is so addicted to shopping. All she likes to do is just shop, shop and shop! And only to find out that she was in a terrible big financial debt problem later. I believe that shopping in every girls dream! Even though, I did dreamt of how nice if I’m a rich girl, I can just shop whatever I wanted to and I just can’t finished imagine on how am I going to spend with all the money that I have… if only, I’m a rich girl (this remind me of the song sang by Gwen Stefani, titled, “Rich Girl”. Hehe… =D).  It is really a nice movie which mainly a comedy with a combination of love story and quite touching though. Besides, it do conveys some morale values in this movie such as like it teach us to spend our money wisely, about friendship and true love. I’m just totally agreed with it and I love this movie meaningful dialogues.

I beg you won’t be regretting after watching this movie. Throughout the movie, there are many parts that makes me laugh all the way (always remember that laugher is a good medicine). I can really tell you that I’m just simply love this whole movie much! Thanks for Isla Fisher who successfully bring out the expression of this main character, Rebecca Bloomwood into live. She is just so funny, naughty and cute. So, don’t you ever miss out to watch this movie k?!

P/S: So pity that I can’t able to share and watch this movie together with my dear. Comedy movie is one of his favourite though, but don’t worry dear. I don’t mind watching for the 2^nd time. Hehe =D

After sometimes I’m with this guy, it seems like my heart getting this insecure feeling. I’m not sure if it is normal for me to feel this way or maybe cause of distance? I can suddenly feel insecure about our relationship and our future together. I could see myself love him quite deep where until sometimes I have the kind of feeling where I don’t want to ever lose him in my life. There are times that I really scare and don’t know what will happens to me if someday I really losing him. Me, myself, I’m not sure if I could handle that if it happen as I know that sometimes it is very easy for us to fall in love but it is thousand hundred times harder to recover from heart broken and to forget the pain.

Well, maybe one of the reasons I felt this insecure love is maybe because of the keep on changing emotions that he have (who born under the star sign of Cancer usually have this behavior… including me.. but just that not that serious like him maybe.. Hehe..). It can happen to seems so unpredictable and there are times that I didn’t know what is in his mind. A feeling where you may felt so hard to deal with when you don’t even have a single clue or know what is your partner’s thinking. I’ve always wished to be the best for him and to be able to stepped and understand his world and to share everything with him rather than to left him alone and lost in his own world.

I know love is sometimes quite complicated. I can say that I’m a very sensitive type of person and I can easily get hurt by a single word that he said. This also applied to those who closed to me; I have always very care for them and do mind on everything they said to me or about me. I admit that I’m very weak on this part and am very soft at heart.

There are times I can see him very clearly that he loved me much such like the way he didn’t mind what others perspective about us and not afraid of showing off that he loves me to everyone and including all of his friends. Unfortunately, now he makes me feels that he is not love me that deeply. I could understand everyone have their own thinking perspectives and have their own point of views on things but for me, I’m not afraid to let everyone know about us.

Even until today, my parent still didn’t know about us but I’m not afraid if they found out. I’m that kind of person where once I love that guy, I’m no longer afraid of other things and willing to give. So do I understand and I know that I can simply be the doormat if I’m stepping into unfruitful love life. But still I didn’t afraid to take the risk of love. I’m willing to have pain and love in my life rather than not being loved at all. Life without love is meaningless and emptiness. What’s your opinion?

If only I had that car… then I’d be satisfied!

If only I could find someone who truly loves me… then I’d be happy!

If only I wasn’t under so much financial stress… then I’d be content!

If only… If only…

All the “If only’s” in the world – even if they all came true – still could not guarantee your happiness!

Count your garden by the flowers,

Never by the leaves that fall.

Count your days by golden hours,

Don’t remember clouds at all.

Count our nights by stars, not shadows.

Count your life with smiles, not tears.

And with joy on every birthday,

Count your age by friends, not years.

Though the skies are cloudy and gray.

No matter what comes my way -

I’m going to be happy today!

When I didn’t fall in love and being single, my life seems to be empty. It is just like a plain white paper. The kind of feeling where there is something missing. Without knowing where to go and loneliness has become a part of me. There is freedom where I can do whatever I wanted to, no one care, no one bother and nobody knows.

Until when I met someone special, everything seems to be so different. My life totally change into a piece of colorful paper where it been painted each and everyday. Whenever I have burdens or I’m down, there are always someone who willing to listen or to share with.

Together we laugh and together we cry… romantic, love and lust fills the air and everywhere. Everything just seems so relax and feels so free as together we fly into the skies. The longer we have been together, the more we don’t want to let go; the moment we had had and the times we are together.

Only wishing upon the stars so that the time may stop and we can be together on that single moment in each other warm, loving and tender hugs… where we cuddled in each other arms.

Though now he is study abroad… each and everyday, we missed each other a lot. Hoping and waiting for that day we can meet again. Whenever we are a part, it makes me feels so sick; a sickness where one couldn’t explain.

One day didn’t see each other was like one year to me. Each and every second, the memories that we had had and the thought of him will always haunting my mind. Not even a trace of his shadow will be gone. The longer we are apart, the more desperate and hunger our love is.

Always thinking that how nice if he is there by my side. No matter how bad the day is and once I’m home, he was there… everything will turns out to be wonderful and peace of mind. He is just like the sunshine after the rain in which have been showered by warm and full of love.

No matter how I missed him, I’m now just praying for the very best of luck; for his studies, our future together and everything to be going on smoothly. May our lives fill with lots of happiness. Together forever… ~ May God Bless Us ~

 ~* I love you, my dear *~

“I love you not for who you are, but for who I am when I’m by your side”.

“No person deserves your tears, and those who deserve them won’t make you cry”.

“Just because someone don’t love you as you wish, it doesn’t mean you’re not loved with all his or her being”.

“A true friend is the one who holds your hand and touches your heart”.

“The worst way to miss someone is to be seated by his or her side and knowing that you’ll never have him or her”.

“Never stop smiling, not even when you’re sad, as someone might fall in love with your smile”.

“You may only be a person in this world but for someone, you’re the world”.

“Don’t spend time with someone who doesn’t care spending it with you”.

“Maybe God wants you to meet many wrong people before you meet the right one, so when this happens, you’ll be thankful and knows that God loves you”.

“Don’t cry because it came to an end. Smile because it happened”.

“There will always be people who will hurt you, so no matter how, you will need to continue trusting and just be extra careful then”.

“Become a better person and be sure to know who you are first before you meeting someone new and hoping that person to know who you are”.

“Don’t struggle so much as best thing happens when you less expected”.

“Let bygones be bygones and live for tomorrow”.

“Look at what you have left in your life, never look at what you have lost”.

“Let your sorrow turn you into a better person and your sorrow will turn out to be a blessing!”

If I knew it would be the last time that I’d see you fall asleep,

I would tuck you in more tightly, and pray the Lord your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time that I’d see you walk out the door,

I would give you a hug and kiss, and call you back for just one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,

I would tape each word and action, and play them back throughout my days.

If I knew it would be the last time, I would spare an extra minute or two,

To stop and say, “I love you.” Instead of assuming you know I do.

So just in case tomorrow never comes, and today is all I get,

I’d like to say how much I love you, and I hope we never will forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old a like,

And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you’re waiting for tomorrow, why not to do it today?

For if tomorrow never comes, you’ll surely regret the day

That you didn’t take that extra time for a smile, a hug or a kiss,

And you were to busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear,

That you love them very much, and you’ll always hold them dear.

Take time to say “I’m sorry,” “Please forgive me,” “thank you” or “it’s okay.”

And if tomorrow never comes, you’ll have no regrets about today.

— by: Norma Cornett Marek —

Ever since I fall in with this guy, my life has once again feeling so lively. It was my happiest moment though. As days goes by, my love for him have become more each and everyday. All this while I have always know what love…is. It may brings us hope, happiness and so does sadness or heat-broken.

When I knew that my love for him been growing, there are times where I’m feeling insecure with our love. For example, when he didn’t text me or send sms to me, I will start to think nonsense… Did he mad at me? Is he too busy until forget me? Did he fall in love with other girls already? There are thousands of questions which can suddenly pop into my conscious mind. In reality, there are always no promises for tomorrow and on what will happen in future. He may be leaving me someday or either one of our heart and feeling may change. A real long term relationship couple of cause for sure wishing to have a steady and looking for love for real and it is no longer where people so called, puppy-love. Everyone also wish to have someone as their life time companion and so do I.

Even now he is studying a far, of cause for sure I still very love him and I have always believed that our love is strong… but… when days goes by where we are distance apart and we less have the chance to meet each other, everything has become so hard. It happens that there is a gap between us and the gap is getting distance and distance. Sometimes, I really worried if our love will turn sour someday. I have once fall to ground and hurt so bad because of this love stuff and I really don’t want this to be happen in my life again. I should have known about this from the beginning when I’m willing to take this risk and to brave myself to step into love again. I missed him a lots and almost like crazy. I know so does he felt that way too. There are times when I’m wondering how long shall we go on like this? Can we able to bear and to go through this loneliness? Nobody wants to be lonely in this world. Especially those who already got their love partner, it will be very suffer for them… where it is just like the love birds where can’t live without companion. I’m confused but I love him very much and so does he.

The only things that I have always remind and motivate myself to be strong and to never easily give up. Though now it may be hard for both of us… maybe in future our lives will become far more much better? I did hope and wish that we will be together forever, married and to have family together with as well. Dear, dear… I really very love you.

18^th January 2009

It has been quite sometime since I last writing out my heart. I finally found someone who I can share my love with. It was my happiest moment to have the chance to get to know him from the beginning. It opens up my eyes and he shows me on how beautiful love is. I love him very much and he is always precious in my heart.

Even though now he is studying far away, but he will always remain in my precious heart. Though I may miss him a lots, but I can’t be so selfish… I could understand how stressful, lonely and bored his life studying there. No matter what, he has to finish and graduated his study for his family and future.  Dear, no matter how hard, you must not easily give up. I will always be there and close in your heart. I will always right here waiting for you whenever you came back. Gambate ne…

There are times where I have the thought of wanted to be with him and spend my whole life with him such as to have and started a family with and always together. Well, you see… of cause I felt very lonely though when he is not around. We are just like glue, we are very close and I believe our love is strong.

I just don’t know how to express how much you are meant to me. Not even a single word can tell the way I felt for you. I really hope we can be together forever. I just want to say I Love You each and everyday since 27^th April 2008, my dear.

 –  I Love You –

14^th December 2008