Perhaps Love…
March 6, 2008 — jenna-chee
Sometimes I did asked myself… if someone have feeling for me… must I felt happy? Must I happy when I receive gift(s) on Valentine’s Day? I’ve been single for so long and I almost forget how really love is… Even out there, have some guys who fell in love in me… but I’m not happy at all. On the other hand, I did felt sad… because I’m still lonely. Besides, I also felt sorry as I may hurt those who I can’t reply their loves. Loneliness had become my very close friend and it won’t easily leave me.
Maybe it is my own fault… as I close myself up and not being open or giving chances to those around me. I just don’t know why that I rather lock myself up in my own world… to be a loner… Or am I afraid to step into this love thing? I just don’t get it… I don’t understand myself either.
Many girls might jealous at me and most people may think that I have everything; I’m not bad looking, have many boy friends and can get help easily whenever I needed them. To tell you the truth, I’ve always been try my very best for not to depend on others… but myself.
I’ve always remind myself to be strong and independent… where you may see it from my appearance… yet, deep inside, I admit that no matter what, I’m still just an ordinary girl who needs love, care and protection from harms… I’m still weak as a girl from within. I think most people don’t know the lonely heart of mine. Even do my tears fall, no one could know or see that. I’m not desperate to have a lover… Maybe, all I need is just a hug… a simple warm hug will be able to cure me, set me free and to put my heart at ease. Perhaps, I need love…
24 February 2008
