♥ Jenna’s Blog: Just @bout Anything ♥

When I got nothing to do, I always thought nonsense. I can’t help myself from thinking a lot of things such as my future, studies, life and etc… So far I have been alone, staying single for a very long time already. Well, sometimes I do felt lonely and wish to be loved, to have someone special in my life… but sometimes, I was like used to be lonely. Loneliness has become a part of my friends. Sometimes when seeing others in couples and they are so in love with each other, I felt so annoying and discomfort. You see… Sometimes really can’t stand the way they act to each other, so “manja”… Well, maybe you may say that I’m jealous of them… but actually, I’m not. The feeling that I felt is just weird. And, when I told others that I’m single, most of them don’t believe me… =_=

Anyway, that doesn’t really bother me much. Since this love stuff doesn’t really matter to me. What matter to me now is about my study! My final semester result just came out not long ago.. (a week ago). It felt so sad when I knew that I got fail 2 papers for my bachelor external paper. After seeing my other friends they already got passed and clear all for either or both of the internal and external (Adv Diploma and Bachelor Degree) papers, while I still have last time internal papers to resit and so does the latest external resit papers… which cause me altogether 4 resit papers! I must at least clear all those resit papers so that I can be able to graduate with my friends on time. After getting the result, this few days I have been so moody. I’ve always wanted to start revising for my resit papers now… but I seem so moody… and don’t know where should I start. Haiz…… z(-_-)z

Another thing that my mind so busy worry and confuse about is that where should I work in future?… Confuse between KL and Penang. If I work at Penang in future, I’ll need to buy a car for my transportation to work everyday. Because of that, I also have to spend a lot paying for that car. You see… I still have to payback my PTPTN loan which I applied during my Diploma (RM10 000) and then I also must give my parent some of my salary (this is a must) and left some for my own expenses use. And finally, all this might ended up that I don’t have any saving! You see… everyone have their own dreams. I’ve always been thought of wanted to buy a house in future… a house where my family can happily live in, relax and comfortable with… “Home Sweet Home”. You see… I’m not from a rich family background though…

Last time I didn’t thought of that money is quite important for us to stay alive in this world… nothing is free! You must always seek for opportunities and they won’t simply easily come your way unless you appreciate the chances you have and are ready to take risks in your life. Well, some may get lucky… but I’m sure they not always got the lady luck throughout their lives. Some may thinks that they are destined the life they are meant to be… for me, I think God always given us freedom to choose the path that we wanted to. Sometimes, we might chosen the wrong path… but that doesn’t mean that is the end of our journey or the end of the world or what so ever. Since we have experienced it and from the mistakes that we have done, we learn from it and move on. It is a chance for us to NOT to repeat the same damn mistakes again in future. Sometimes life can be sucks, boring, sad, happy and always have its ups and downs… Don’t you think it’s just so wonderful? No matter what…

Life Goes On